"They are not organized to stop things and when they get organized their leaders sell them out."

Ever want to start over?
Leave everything behind and have no one judge you from you past?
I want to, but even though my friends don't care as much, it would still be hard leaving eveyone/thing I have known for so long.
I have lived in this house forever, gone similar private catholic schools.
Everything, I hate it, yet I'm scared to leave it.
I do but I don't.
My mom always tells me "If you're unhappy here, find different living arragements"
Dear mom, I'm 15 years old, my friends parents don't want to take me in, there is no one my siblings will, and there is no way I can provide for myself, thanks for the thought though.
At least when I go off to college I can be provided for and not live here.
Too bad its 3 years away.
I already planed out what I want to.
Getting out is my dream, leaving is my nightmare.
How do you get up and leave a life you know, something so rutine?
How do you just leave no turning back.
When you figure it out
Let me know
God knows I'll be waiting my the phone.