he had eyes, and beyond eyes vision, and beyond vision, heart and love and hunger---to know

I'm alone in this world.
That's how its always been.
That's what I brace myself everyday when I wake up.
I expect fake smiles, fake laughs, fake "I love yous"
but that's your result from fake people I suppose.
I just wish I could find a real friend, I wish maybe I could get along with my family.
But just beause I wish it doesnt make it happen, unfortunatly.
I know I let my family down with the way I am, but I have changed my self so many times for their approval I'm done.
I'm fimally happy with myself.
BUt why is it no one else is.
maybe I chose the wrong person to be.
Maybe one day I won't have to be alone.
But at least I know I can.
At least I've learned not to rely on anyone
maybe that's not a good thing