close your eyes, hold your breath and shut your mouth

I wish I lived at the soup kitchen
I love it there
the people you serve are so unbelievably nice
the politleness you should expect from everyone else
is what they excel in
if this makes sense
It is always "thank you dear" "if you don't mind sweety"
it is so hard to wipe the smile off my face when I am there.
The people I serve are so nice
but the people that do the serving, are just as lovely,
joking and laughing, so caring and nice, they know how to make you smile and feel good.
they are so thankful and just love to give
giving is what they're good at and they do it as much as they can
while we were praying
a man thanked god for waking him up
another had been clean for two weeks on his own
another thanked god for US
I don't thank god enough
we should all start
Dear Mom,
I think I found my hero.

keep going--they are

I wear a key and an anchor around my neck

one to remind me who owns access to my heart, and no keep in mind it is mine fault if it is broken
and one to keep my hopes, and head from not going to far.

I need to write here more.
I still feel just as alone.
my heart is aching for something lately.
literally aching
and I keep getting dizzy.
I am always an edge
expecting something to happen
waiting and hoping
not knowing.
I found someone who knows how I feel
It is the best feeling ever.
She and I can just talk
and I know she knows
where is the boy version of her
wake me up when you find it