You'll go out in "style"

I find myself most comfortable lying on the floor
when I am sad I lock the door lay on my floor and cry

when I am sad I am the biggest hypocrite you will ever see
"I hate myself but I don't want to change"
basically many thing similar to that
but why am I more comfortable on my floor then with my family
I hide my real crazy self from them because they won't like them
I got more out spoken and they got mad and told me to stop
told me they liked the quiet listener better
maybe because I didn't tell them how self centered they all were
and how not everything I think about is you and your problems
they just don't comprehend they are not my main focus
crazy I know
Sorry I don't think of you ever hour of my life
but maybe if you were nicer and loved me like you should
I would respect you more
won't be too hard considering right now you have a big fat 0 in my book

You can mess with a lot of things, but not kids on christmas

I keep complaining
it is my new hobby apparently
I am too fat
too ugly
too annoying
I need to change
but I don't want to
I try to appear happy
I admire people from afar
I never take a chance
these are my qualities
I cry in private hoping no one sees
I hide myself
I don;t want to be me
I don't like me
I want to change
I want to stop
I want to stay on this dirty floor forever
but that won't make things better now will it
my thoughts are scambled
you put the together
I have too much on my mind to do that right now