I need someone

I am sitting at the beach
I hear laughter
joy
drunks
everything
I miss my friends
but I miss something more then that
something I've never had
something I want
love
I want someone to hold me
I want someone I can talk to
someone I can kiss
someone I can hug
someone that will hold me
someone that will tell me I am prety even though I am not
someone to be there
someone that loves me back

but I think I wll never get it
no I know I won't

You've got me almost figured out

My creative wheels have been turning
this day has been a day filled with top model, live earth, and A PROJECT
how I love days like these
the lazy days where you don't feel useless
another project that I am VERY excited has come into motion
It was not my idea
but I wish it was
that is how amazing
I hope I am able to help a lot
It is an amazing cause
more about it later
I do not want to be a spoil sport
:) LOVE YOU ALL
if there even is an all







you're bringing out the best in me

Just some thoughts

On the fourth of July
I found myself on the Navy bridge watching fireworks with my mom and friend
after a while I found myself growing bored
It was then I realized
beauty, it is fun to look at for a while
but after a while you grow bored of just that
it is not everything
so instead of starving to be seen as pretty
work on your personality
make that shit shine

THE ACADEMY IS...

Hey everyone
the academy is...is going on tour this fall
it is an amazing line up
and will be an amazing show
I am really excited for it
I know for a fact the academy is...is an amazing live band
and I am excited for the others
who by the way are
Armor For Sleep,
The Rocket Summer,
and Sherwood
so GO
:D thanks

I wish I could never wish again

Last night I stayed up very late
crying
silently because I had a friend over and I didn't want her to see me
It was just one of those days
the day when you question if you will ever find that one person
the person everyone else has
and you desperately need
I am happy for my friends
but oh so so so jealous
Old people tell me how pretty I am
But it is hard to believe them when the mirror tells me different
whispering harsh words into my ear
telling me the truth
and when no one else contradicts it
You start believe
my friends don't tell me I am pretty
except one
my friends don't tell me I look good
except one
my friends don't tell me I am thin
except one
and I realized that ONE is all I need
she knows me
she knows what I am going through
because we are the same
SHE KNOWS ME BECAUSE SHE IS LIKE I AM
that quote (changed around) means so much to me right now
maybe I will NEVER find that one person
maybe they found someone else
maybe they are gone
maybe they never came
but as long as I always have this one friend I WILL BE FINE
it will be harder but she will help me
I thank God everyday for this friend
thank you that I found her
she was always there, just overlooked- put on the back burner
but when I needed her
she stepped up
and I will never make her second best EVER again
we have our lives planed to a t
and I wouldn't have it any other way
so thank you for being there
thank you for knowing
because without you
I would be a lonely girl on the floor.
I truly love you