I wish I could never wish again

Last night I stayed up very late
crying
silently because I had a friend over and I didn't want her to see me
It was just one of those days
the day when you question if you will ever find that one person
the person everyone else has
and you desperately need
I am happy for my friends
but oh so so so jealous
Old people tell me how pretty I am
But it is hard to believe them when the mirror tells me different
whispering harsh words into my ear
telling me the truth
and when no one else contradicts it
You start believe
my friends don't tell me I am pretty
except one
my friends don't tell me I look good
except one
my friends don't tell me I am thin
except one
and I realized that ONE is all I need
she knows me
she knows what I am going through
because we are the same
SHE KNOWS ME BECAUSE SHE IS LIKE I AM
that quote (changed around) means so much to me right now
maybe I will NEVER find that one person
maybe they found someone else
maybe they are gone
maybe they never came
but as long as I always have this one friend I WILL BE FINE
it will be harder but she will help me
I thank God everyday for this friend
thank you that I found her
she was always there, just overlooked- put on the back burner
but when I needed her
she stepped up
and I will never make her second best EVER again
we have our lives planed to a t
and I wouldn't have it any other way
so thank you for being there
thank you for knowing
because without you
I would be a lonely girl on the floor.
I truly love you