My mind is constantly wondering.
I tell myself stories of amazing things I wish would happen so maybe they will or maybe it will bring a smile to my face.
I lie to myself.
I say "It will happen, tomorrow will be better"
I promise things I can't keep, things out of my control.
I can't make someone love me.
I can't even make someone like me.
I give the wrong impression of myself to people, they get the wrong idea and then I never hear from them again.
I think I do this on purpose.
It's easier for someone to leave now rather then later.
But how many times have you heard that, and how many times has it worked?
I don't know I just want to see if someone will try to look 'deep down.'
If someone cares that much.
Until then I will continue to escape my life.
Make up the little stories in my head.
Hide from reality.
Hell, I'm reading three books at once to get away.
1. "To Kill A Mockingbird" for school but I also Love it so far.
2. "A Farewell To Arms" I love it, almost done but wishing there was more.
3. "Perks of Being a Wall Flower" started it yesterday. A lot of people have told me to read it so I am.
I'll let you know how they are.
untill then I'll trudge through life, finding nice places to stop along the way.
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